When there is doubt

Have you ever had that feeling in the pit of your stomach? Bent, twisted, and full of butterflies? Kinda like you're on a roller coaster? Lately I have been on this never-ending thrill ride. I've been learning, in my own personal journey, that its not what we do, its why we do it. I have been guilty of not being transparent. Jesus told us that we are one body. If I bleed we all bleed, if I am joyful, then we are all joyful. I exude the characteristics of happiness and strength in everyone's mind to keep them at ease, but why am I so consumed with "image management"? GOD has been telling me that "IT DOESN'T MATTER THAT YOU HAVE FLAWS, IT DOESN'T MATTER THAT YOU FALL ALL THE TIME" he's telling me that "I STILL LOVE YOU". I don't know, it's not that I don't trust anyone, it's not that I'm not secure with who I am spiritually, I guess I was raised that being too open, letting too many people into the real me can cause heartache....but it is not what we do its why we do it. Last night I was challenged to let people in. " All you have to do is ask". I am learning to live my life more transparent, more open to others. And always HE tells me," I STILL LOVE YOU! IT DOESN'T MATTER THAT YOU HAVE FLAWS! IT DOESN'T MATTER THAT YOU FALL ALL THE TIME! BECAUSE I STILL LOVE YOU!"

" What if the deepest, deadliest, and most terrible parts of our lives never get uprooted until we talk openly about them-confess them- to trustworthy others who can encourage us and lock arms with us to help us walk out our freedom?
This begs the question, do you have someone like that in your life, someone with whom you can be totally honest? Or are you basically doing life alone?"
Individualitis- Religously Transmitted Diseases- Ed Gungor